Day 18 of the 30 Day Challenge: A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Well, to be honest, I seriously considered posting a picture of my belly. I've never had a super flat tummy and I've always felt insecure about it, but to be frank - I couldn't care less about it right now.
(ash, when she was learning to walk. 9 months.)
My biggest insecurity is probably my mothering. I'm forever stewing and fretting. Am I doing this right? Do they get enough protein? Do I give them too many snacks? Am I too soft on them? Am I too strict? Did I give them enough attention today? Should I be teaching them more? Am I setting the right example? I really didn't mean to yell..... Do I spend too much on their clothes (yes)? How can I help them overcome their challenges when my own seem so insurmountable? I failed at potty training. Am I going to fail at everything else the first time too? Should I give in or not? Is this the battle I should pick or lose? I forgot to call her doctor about that question again!!!! Why can't I remember anything? Should I be giving their days more structure? Am I doing enough? AM I enough? Am I really cut out for this job? This is a lot of responsibility!!
A lot of the time I feel like the above. But just as much as I feel inadequate, I also feel cool, calm, semi-collected and genuinely happy about my mothering and how my kids are doing. It's definitely a merry-go-round.